Scatterbrained

I feel like my mind has been all over the place.I guess in a sense that's good since I have been mostly all focused on finding a job. Not that that is not in the forefront of my mind, because it is. I still haven't gotten anything yet. And it is insanely stressing. Here it is, the end of the month, and I still have nothing to show for it. I am at a loss to why this is happening. But I try my hardest finding a job that can help support us, and that is all I can do. I wish people liked me! ;)

Other things that have been occupying my thoughts are my stories. I keep coming up with so many ideas and I need to get them out or my head starts to hurt. I have several that I am working on right now. I love it. I love writing and getting everything down. I'm sure they're not that good, but that would be amazing if I could sell them. Then again, I haven't had any college, and it seems like a lot of people who write books have a little college under their belt, and I don't. Maybe eventually, we'll see.

I have so many ideas. They're not all the same. Some may be supernatural, and then others aren't at all, and they're just real life. I love being in my own little worlds. When they cross over, it's a little hard and I need to focus and narrow a lot of my ideas down. But they are all on the down low and I haven't let anyone read them. I'm not that far along anyway. I think it will make me feel accomplished to get them done, and I guess that's all that matters, having a hobby and keeping busy, so I'm not going so crazy about this job thing. Or maybe its made it worse? I don't know.

I'm also still crocheting. I need to focus on this thing I'm making. I should have had it done a little while ago, but then I started on my stories. I need to manage when I do everything haha but then wouldn't that mean I'm being OCD about something that supposed to calm me down? My brain is just going a million miles an hour.

We went to the movies the other day and saw a good one based off of a book. It made me want to read the books, and then I saw a preview for another movie based off of another book, and I want to read that. But now I feel like I would worry if I'd read something and feel like I am writing the same things, or lose my focus on what my story is compared to theirs. I guess it's not like a big deal since my stories aren't going to get out there anyways. But since my mind is all over the place, I shouldn't add more things to do. Then again, it really is keeping me busy when I'm not looking for a job constantly. Any escape is nice. I feel like I'm not even making sense in this post haha

Kasey didn't get a deer on his trip, but he'll still have a few more chances to get one this year. He said he had a good time, and that's all that matters, so that's good. We are supposed to be going camping tomorrow night. But we're going up a treacherous road and I am going to be having a crazy anxiety attack the entire time, just like the last time. I know, I'm a spaz.

Kasey started his fall semester this past week. I think it's going well. He is going full time, but he scheduled it so he has the same days off as the summer semester. He's still working up in Ogden with Securitas. It sucks, because he's gone all weekend basically and then he's at school all week, and exhausted the rest of the time. I just hope to get a job soon to take so much pressure off of him. And then we can get our own place! Please let it happen soon!