It's getting closer and closer and feeling more surreal as each minute passes. November 16th is coming and I can't wait for it. I catch myself holding my breath or bouncing up and down in anticipation. I can feel myself getting more and more jittery. Seeing his face will put a huge smile on mine.
November 16th is going to be a big day. It will be my first day waking up in the last 4 and 1/2 years and technically not be employed. I will be looking for work. And then that night I will be picking my husband up from the airport, and then our lives can truly start together.
It's an intense feeling when you sit and think about it. It's a new chapter. Hell, it might even be a whole new book. We get to do so many things, and experience them together, as a married couple, husband and wife.
And the thing is, I'm not scared. I want it to be now. I didn't really care about my future too much before. I was in my own little world, having my own drama, not knowing what was next, not looking forward to anything, staying in the dark. And then the light and fire and drive came back into my life when Kasey did.
I have never wanted anything more in my entire life. I want to live together, I want to make food together, I want to have our own house, I want to go on walks, I want to go and get that first animal together, I want to have our babies, I want to be old and have grey hair and still hold hands with my soulmate, and have him tell me he still loves me. I want our life, and we can FINALLY start it. You may call me cheesy, a dreamer, a romantic, but we have been given a precious gift: love, and I'm going to fight like hell to keep it.
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