Well, It's been awhile. Thanksgiving was fun! We made our own dinner and just enjoyed stuffing our faces. Then we went to a friend's house for desert and that was really nice. It was nice and relaxing and it was great to spend the time with Kasey. It was definitely different from last year when we had three dinners to go to in the same day. Don't get me wrong, we miss family, but it was nice to not have to rush to eat or rush to and from houses! It will be different once again next year when we're back in Utah again.
This Christmas is going to be the same. We already have everything bought, wrapped, ad under the Christmas tree. It's so tempting to shake everything to see if I can guess what everything is. I can not WAIT for Kasey to open everything. I sure hope he likes it all.
My last day at work was Black Friday. I even was told to leave early. It feels weird not working. It definitely did make me appreciate being a stay at home wife more. I even have been making dinners a lot more. Well, lately it's been slacking, but I'll pick it up haha But I also feel like I should have stuck it out for another paycheck or two. It would have helped with money a little. We're making everything work like we knew we could, it's just stressing, especially while trying to do all the Christmas stuff. I just don't think I could have lasted longer there anyway, especially since they started cutting back hours pretty bad and it would not have been worth it money wise to stay anyway.
I'll be back in Utah on January 7th at 1:30-ish. It feels weird, since it's in like two and a half weeks. I can't believe we've been here a year. It's like time flew but it also took forever to pass. I'm excited but I'm also sad. Kasey won't be here for my birthday again. And we won't see each other until the very end of March. I know we've gone longer, but when you've been with your best friend straight for a year, it's hard to be away. At least I'll be near family and friends.
Another thing that is really sad is that we are on month 15 of trying to conceive and once again, it hasn't happened. It's frustrating. Everyone I know is already on their second baby. It's hard. Analysis came back on Kasey and he's good, so it just makes me feel more and more like it's my fault. It doesn't help that I have been have such crappy luck and experiences with my doctors. I really need someone who cares about what we want and actually cares to help us sustain a pregnancy. So basically we're just going to have to stop and then pick it up again at the end of March. I can see how maybe a break can help, but the thyroid, pcos, and endometriosis isn't getting any better. It's upsetting. I can't say it enough or really put into words how discouraging it really is.
But anyhoo, I'll be back in a few weeks time and it will be nice to see some of you.
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