I was going to post the weekend of our anniversary, but we've been busy on and off and sometimes I can't get myself to sit down and type.
It has been a great first year married :) We have been through so much and we wouldn't change anything. We have spent a lot of time apart, time getting along, time not getting along so well, and time just living. Living our life to the fullest :) I am so completely happy being married to Kasey and having our life together. I still get butterflies when it comes to him, I can't help but smile when I see his face. He's my everything.
This next year is going to be just as challenging. I feel like when people say the second deployment is a little easier, they are talking out of their asses. Pardon my french, but seriously? I'm dreading it just as much as before. I know Kasey isn't going to be a newbie out in the sandbox and he will know more and everything, but going to FRG meetings and them telling us he needs to make out a will and sign all of this paperwork is making everything extremely real. And making me sick to be honest.
It's coming up extremely soon and we have a few things to figure out still! And yes, once again, one of the big things is what's going on with me? What about our stuff? What's the next step?
I feel like the more I make up my mind, the less likely it's going to happen. I am really starting to want to move back to Utah more and more, and we're having some problems figuring that out.
Money is a main problem. The army will not pay for me to move back. So an option would be to put most of our stuff in storage, load the jeep up, and drive back. We had heard that the army would pay for the storage, but now we're hearing they won't do that either. And then once I get there, where am I going to live? I want to be able to settle in and look for a job, but how is all of that going to work? If I am not working and Kasey is the main money maker for a minute yet he's deployed, how am I going to put my name on a lease or anything?
It's getting super frustrating, and I think that's why we haven't actually sat down to talk seriously about it, because it's pretty daunting. We still have a lot of talking to do and figuring stuff out.
On the baby front, I just finished my second round of clomid this morning. I am feeling really good about this month. I really want to send those positive vibes out there. I have an appointment on Monday and hoping that we figure some stuff out. And my thyroid medication needs to be up'd and I have an appointment with that doctor in a week and a half. We're getting me to the healthiest I can be to make sure our baby is just as healthy.
Kasey is doing really good. He is a Specialist Promotable now and hopefully will get his Sergeant September 1st! I'm so proud of him. He has been working his ass off everyday and even then he is super helpful when I work late and he has to make dinner. I love our family!
Chester is still the same pain in the ass he always is and we still love him, especially when he's all sweet and cuddly. Kasey has been working really hard on training him and Chester listens a little better now... sometimes.
Izzy(Yzzy) is a potential new member of our family. One of momma kitty's babies. She's only 6 weeks old and is being fostered (that is a LONG story). We are still trying to see if she'll fit with us and Chester but Kasey is in love with her. Chester is a bit rambunctious but I'm hoping it will work out because baby needs a home.
And that's it for now. I know there's always more to talk about, but I'm already rambling.
